Christmas Tree Trash Brownies

My inner fat kid is judging me.

So I'm sitting at my desk eating a bagel and thinking this has got to stop. Anyone who knows me knows that I do not eat bagels. I don't eat any "non" foods. I'm the obnoxious person who asks for the Gluten Free menu at restaurants and "hold the dairy" and "can I substitute the potatoes for a veggie?" My husband rolls his eyes, my friends poke fun at me for being difficult, I'm pretty sure the waiter spits in my food, but I just ignore it and keep eating Paleo (google it if you don't know what this is...or keep following and you'll eventually figure it out :) ). So like I said, I never eat popcorn until this week hit me. I've been stressed. Very, very stressed. And then all bets were off.

It all started with one dark chocolate hershey's nugget.

Just one nugget.
Then maybe just two.
Then two more
and then I ate:

6 full sized Peanut Butter Cups
4 Kit Kat bars
Skittles
more chocolate nuggets
Vanilla Wafers

Pub Mix (if you don't know what this is you are better off for it...cheesy crunchy goodness)

about 40 animal crackers
The sugar headache came on, but I kept strong.

I went home and realized that I threw the last of our junk food out the night before. See, there was a box of Little Debbie Brownies. You know the ones with the waxy delicious frosting (shaped like Christmas Trees) I had received them as a present from a lady at work and I didn't eat even one Christmas Tree! These have been sitting around m house since before Christmas and no one ate them! So I put them in the trash can the night before. Well that night, I picked the box out of the trash and ate all three Christmas Tree brownies. You heard me right, I ate Christmas Tree Trash Brownies! Out of the trash can. "Hello Low Point, lets be friends"

See the problem is that I have great will power until I make one little error and then I'm not just off the wagon, I killed the horse that pulled the wagon and used the wagon wood to make a fire pit with which to toast marshmallows. So my out of control binge chocolate eating has spread across three days (and may or may not have included Chinese Pot Stickers and Shrimp Fried Rice last night and four cookies at work today...oh wait, that was five cookies because I bought a Oatmeal Raisin Cookie at Zoup today as well).

So the moral of my story is that I'm starting over again. A re-boot of my nutrition and exercise plan. Not because I want to be skinny or perfect but because I want to be happy. I want to be healthy. I want to be content. So that is what this blog is, my musing, my recipes, my trials and my failures as I find a path to content. Oh and I love to cook. So look for some great recipies and photos as I invent in the kitchen! Here's to a Sanguine life.

P.S. I can't spell. Do not message me with spelling or typing errors. I do not care. If it bothers you, don't read my blog.